Getting back to Normal :)

I am behind!! I've been so tired lately, making a baby is hard work! and I feel like I sleep all the time. But I know this tired phase will pass soon :)

Sooo.. I took the intelligender test!!!! It was weird, and the container got really really hot after I swirled me pee around. I dont think your suppose to hold it up to the light, but of course I did, in order to get the desired results I wanted of course!
So here is pic
A.

Here is
B.

and here is while sitting on the counter at eye level :)


So we can all see that it clearly says BOY!
which I know I want a girl, but the other day when Riley was running around the house, yelling "Im a superhero! I'll save you mommy!" I thought, you know another little superhero around the house wouldnt be so bad after all :)
But the catch is... on the box it states! VERY CLEARLY

Which I have PCOS, inside in the directions it states Not recommended because women with PCOS will likly get a false boy readings. So I guess that still gives me hope! :) But it was interesting to take.
I found my little sir in my bathroom a few days ago, asked him what he was doing and he yelled back, "just putting on my makeup" I thought ok, then.. what?? of course I ran in yelling "child what are you doing!" but he did look pretty cute with the little blush brush and his rosey cheeks.

Saturday we wanted to do something fun! We were suppose to go to lunch with my aunt and cousins, but her first grandson was born that day! So we went to Peter Piper Pizza just us! :) It was nice, but holy moly there were tons of kids there! What was I thinking going on a saturday night! all the ski-ball machines were broken, and the parents just let there 2-4 year olds run wild with no tokens so they were all over all the games, and racing games without actually playing. so we didnt spend much time over there. Riley was sad when we left early, but we played candyland when we go home so that made it better! :)
Riley was trying to make an ugly/funny face

He wasnt doing is right, so Daddy had to show him how to make an ugly/funny face! and boy did he do a great job!!

Then today, Paigey came home!!! It was so good to see her! and Dani and Noah! Noah is getting so big he is nearly walking already!! Im so proud of him!

Noah is so cute!! :) He has the cutest little cowlick, it runs in the family :)

I know I look like crap in this picture! :) buts that ok, Im such a wuss I cry all the time when my sisters and I are together! :) I miss them so much.

The results are in..

Just 1 baby!! :) Im actually surprised, but nearly relieved!
There is one strong tiny heartbeat in there :)

How is the big question!!




BOY??





Or






Girl??



In a few weeks I am going to take the intelligender test! Emily took it and it came out correct for her. There are a few complications with me using it since I have PCOS which means I naturally have higher testosterone (I think I spelled that wrong) then every other woman who doesnt have it. It even states it on the box that I will most likely get a boy result even if I am having a girl. But I have to try anyways right :)


Of course I am hoping for a little girl, since I already have my perfect little boy. :) But I would be completely happy with another little man around the house! :)
Oh and the Dr is measuring me nearly a week later then the online calculator states. Which is good for a couple of reasons :) So my due date is May 1st. which is 2 days after Riley's 4th birthday! So we will see what happens! :)
Yay! :)

1.....2.....3..???

Tomorrow is my first ultrasound and Dr's appointment. I am worried and excited and nervous about it. I am wanting to hear that everything is ok, that the heartbeat it strong, and everything looks good. One thing that I am wondering is, How many babies...
1 2 or 3! ??? Hopefully not 3! We would be in trouble if we had 3..
Since I took Clomid which is a fertility drug to make me ovulate there is a significatly higher chance of multiples. & I took the highest dose of the medication. We are so happy either way. But having twins changes allot of things. So tomorrow is exciting!!

Awe, how sweet..

*************** A LIttle Story ***************
Riley: Are you happy Mommy?
Me: Yes honey I'm happy
Riley: Are you getting Married?
Me: I'm already Married to daddy
Riley: Oh, are you going to have a wedding?
Me: we already did, but you werent there
Riley: I'm getting married too
Me: Oh really? Who are you going to Marry?
Riley: You Mommy :)

Awe, My kid is so sweet.

and his new thing is running up and giving me a giant hug! and saying
"Your the best girl I ever had" :) Like he has had so many, but its nice to be at the top of the list, reguardless of how long it may be.

Potty training..... Nearly sucessful! 90%, he hasnt worn diapers in over 5 days now. I might get to start buying diapers for the new baby now, instead of my 3 year old! :) I'm so proud of him. I finally got him to agree to not wear diapers anymore by having a fight with him, where we both ended up crying, and then he hugged me and said "i'll help you mommy", and he is doing great! Yay!!

Something to make you laugh out loud

I was blog hopping and came across this site. Its an entire site that everyday they add a new awkward family photo. Some of them are so funny! and I think I have a few of my own to submit!




So for a daily laugh, or just to feel better about your family :) Check out

http://awkwardfamilyphotos.com/

& I dont think mike and I will be taking a phot like this in 6 months :) LOL Its pretty creepy!!

Oh Happy Day...

After over 2 years of trying.. We are finally PREGNANT!!! I am soo excited! Mike and Riley are so excited! :) I know its a little soon to be posting anything, and most people wait a month or so, but I cant help it!! Its been such a struggle, and a daily trial that I feel like I can finally relax., and just enjoy it! :)
& I have a few more weeks, before I start being really sick! My due date is April 29th! Which is Riley's 4th birthday!
I will be posting updates and things on my other blog. I was going to get a pregnancy journal, but they are all kinda lame! So I figure I will make my own. I didnt document allot of things when I was pregnant with Riley so I want to make sure I do that with this baby!! OMG I'm having a baby!!! WOOHOOO

& the reason the baby ticker says Yokomoshi Langen, is because thats what we call the baby till we know what it is :) Right now its just our little Yokomoshi :)

Some Pages Turned, some Bridges Burned, Some Lessons Learned

I am 30 years old. The past couple weeks have been the worst weeks since my mom died 10 years ago. Things I never thought would happen.. did..
I had this vision of my life in 10 years 20 years, it encluded someone I thought was very important 2 me, we would be going to parks together, shopping together, raising our children together. Going to their school activities, and taking family vacations. Growing old, watching our kids leave the nest, and somewhere in there taking up, weekly card games as a hobby, and arts and crafts night.. But that vision, that plan.. is gone.
I feel betrayed, back stabbed, and I was humilated until I realized,.. that.. I have a great life. I am a successful woman, married to a kind handsome man, with an amazing smart, kind caring son. I have a nice house, I am creative, kind,smart, spunky,fun loving, fun to be around, outgoing and I have lots of friends I really care about. Someone wanted that. and I nearly feel sorry for this person. That the desperation ran so deep, the sadness and low self esteem was so powerful, that it made what happened.. seem.. ok, not that bad. and maybe she (me) will never know.
I am sad, because I feel like I have lost a part of my family, and experienced a deeply broken heart, in more ways then one. I still have visions of things I read, and bad thoughts. involving knives, cars, ropes., ect.. but I suppose thats normal for awhile, and I know that evertday will get better, everyday I will forgive a little more. Although I will NEVER FORGET. The last couple of weeks, have proved what I have been telling my husband for years. Women are Evil, and Men are Stupid.
I know im not perfect,and have made mistakes but Im working on it. and I am re-building that foundation on which my life is based on.
I am truely sorry that this happened, But maybe some day I will realize it was a blessing, instead of the way it feels right now. I hope,
I am going to continue being me, raising my son, loving my husband, and living my life, But a little wiser this time. To this person who hurt my family so deeply, I want you to know, I love your children, I always will, I love you, and your family, I always will, I took your pictures out of my house, but I cannot take you out of my heart. One day the pain will fade, and the memories wont be so vivid. I cant wait for that day. For the day, that I look back at our past, and think good thankful thoughts, knowing that you are one of the people that helped make me who I am, and I thank you for that. But I can never see us speaking or seeing each other again. I hope your life, is everything you ever wanted it to be. & I hope that you find whatever it is your looking for.


ok.. moving on..
Mike turned 30! We had a party. we played a game, we hit a pinata, we had pizza.
Mike and I went on a nice date tonght! :) It was fun! We went to Red Lobster! Which I love and the Crab was perfect! then we went to see... the Ugly truth!! Which was so cute, and funny, and yes a chick flick but mike loved it. It was a guy movie too! & we discovered a new word that perfectly discribes my husband! It was so funny., Nuerotic! :) But those are some of the very reasons I love him.
It was our first night out without riley since we saw, 'Forgetting Sarah marshall" which I think that came out a year ago!! So it was nice, and it was the first time I wasnt really worried about riley. He is growing up so fast! and Communicating so well.
School starts in a coupld of weeks, and I am taking a pretty heavy class load this time. Im nervous, but I know I can handle it! :) After this semester I will recieve my Crime Scene Investigator Tech Certificate :) Im excited!
Riley and I had fun taking funny face pics.. I couldnt get them all I was laughing to hard! Here are a few




I think I have aged 10 years this week!!

Colors, Numbers, Sugar = Surprise!

Mike's birthday isnt for 2 weeks, But today I wanted to try and make him a cake!
I figured, try.. was the key word! I've been watching Ace of Cakes, and Cake Boss like crazy lately, and I have always wanted to try fondont! So I thought it would be nice to make a cake for him, and surprise him with his birthday gift at the same time.

Blink 182 has been mike's favorite band for at least 11 years! and they are back together now and coming to concert in Sept. I got him tickets to the show, but I knew he needed time to make sure he could get it off work. So when the cake turned out so good today! I decided to make his birthday come a bit earlier! :)

I should have taken a picture of my hands after last night! I took the fondont to work and added the coloring and mixed it together there. My hands were/are dyed partially blue! with orange speckles.
Heather came over today to help me! Yay! and she is a rolling queen! and thank goodness for those cookie cutters or it would have taken an hour to cut out all the letters by hand. Putting it on the cake was easier then I thought too.

I even made the inside of the cake bright orange too! Since Blue and Orange are his favorite colors I thought it would be the perfect Cake! He loved it, and was so happy to get the concert tickets! I think he is still is Awe, that he gets to see Blink 182 again!.

I really enjoyed making it and it came out pretty nice, Fondant isnt yummy.. ewe. but it sure does look pretty :)
I think I will be doing more, the bad thing about this hobby is, Its expensive. and you eat the end result!.. But it is allot of fun!

Stuff, Party, treats...

Hello Middle of JULY! that is crazy how fast the last few months have gone by. I feel like since I took my finals the beginning of May, I have been a complete space Cadet!! (worse then usual)
Tammy's birthday was last week, We went to Dave and Busters,

It was cool! like an arcade for adults, with great food :)

We are going back in a few weeks.
Riley loved the driving games..

and he went "bowling with spongebob"


Most all of us are 30 Now.. Mike's birthday is next month.. and I think thats it! I cant believe we have entered the next chapter in our lives as official adults.


Riley and I made rice crispy treats today..

and I discovered he is just like his dad, wont even eat them because they are sticky! but it was fun for me, I havent made them in a long time.

I am very proud of my husband lately.. He is really growing into his own.
I am a PROCRASTINATOR!! i dont think I spelled that right. I have been meaning to call and start the re-finance our house process, but I kept putting it off. One day mike did it, and we signed the final papers on friday! We are saving over $100 a month!! thank goodness. and just in time too, they said as of MONDAY they are all checking credit scores.. and we wouldnt have been able to re-fi if they had to check our credit. He even did the dishes a few days ago.
Here Comes TO MUCH INFORMATION.. but since I make books out of my blogs.. it need to be in here :)

So Mike and I have been trying to have another baby for about 2 years! I really really started trying Last OCT.. No luck, until a miscarriage in April, Thank GOD I didnt know I was pregnant till it happened. I would have been heart broken. more then I already was.
I have learned more then I ever thought I would about "HOW TO GET PREGNANT" and how bodies work.. or Dont.. in my case. I dont know how NOT to think about it everyday. I dont know how to put it in the back of my mind and do other things.
I wake up each morning, and take my temp.. most the time I dont chart it, then I look at the calender to see what day of my cycle I am on, then I pee on a stick, always to get neg results.. I have only gotten 3 positive tests for Ovulation in 9 months!. Here comes the TO MUCH INFO!!!...BEWARE>>
Then I chart my cervical mucus everyday, and when we have sex,and when we HAVE to have sex, and then think of sneaky ways to make it happen without him knowing thats what I am doing, somedays I even have to call in late to work! and then I count foward and backward on the calender to see when I can take a preg-o test.. and the likely-ness of the days adding up right. THen I look up my symptoms online, and check the PCOS website for new information and posts on threads about getting pregnant.. I am also taking CLOMID some months which is a pill to make you ovulate. And I am also taking METFORMIN, which is usually for Diebetics, but it also treats PCOS, which is Poly Cycstic Ovarian Syndrome, which I have,. it regulates your blood sugar, and brings my hormones levels back to normal. The pills make me sick, and they smell and taste gross, I do this process everyday. and it seems so silly somedays, because I know when the time is right it will happen. But I guess its hard to understand because so many woman plan to get pregnant, get off the pill and the next month BAM they are going to have a baby!.. Why is it so easy for some, and nearly impossible for me. I am soooo blessed to have Riley, when I know there are people who cant even have one. & he is a great kid, who I love more then life itself.
I would like to be able to focus on something else.. becuase there are so many things I want to do, but I cant seem to. Sure I get the things done I need to, and I take care of my resopnsibilities, but I wish I would just get pregnant already!! So I can move on!! plan for the future and focus on other things.. (well then I suppose I would be focus'ing on the addition to the family) but at least thats a good reason to think about it.. Sorry for venting.. I should be enjoying only having one child.. Knowing that if I want to go to the store I can just grab him and go, no planning involved. He can get his own breakfast and snacks, and juice. we have full conversations. If mike and I go out, we can usually take him, he is low maintance, and very entertaining. If we had 2 or more kids, this would all change. So maybe god doesnt think I am ready for that change yet.. so for now I will have to accept that.. and try.. TRY to focus on other things.. TRY = key word.

Idependence day!

Happy 4th of July!!! It's my favorite holiday!.. eventhough its hot and sticky.. I love it. I think because when I was little my grandpa owned a firework stand in Missouri and I used to work there. I have allot of fond memories of 4th of july.. and there are not that many from my childhood I can remember.
I had the day off!! :) Yay, and we had a BBQ with our friends and family.

I hope everyone had a good time,

Mike BBQ'd, he is getting really good at it!.

Riley did yard work :) I've always wanted a man around the house :) LOL,









Heather and her family came over, Riley was so excited to see his friends, he was so sad earlier when my father in law, Jason and Tiff got there, and there was no one for him to play with.


They had a watergun fight,



they played with glowsticks, and kid fireworks.....

played outside and ate yummy watermelon



We watched the fireworks from our driveway, we could see them from schnepf farms :) we had a pretty good view,

We played Catch Phrase, which is the game heather and spencer taught us at her party. Its such a fun game and it gets everyone involved.
Here is Mady in her cute little 4th of july outfit :) Heather made the bow :)






Here is a goofy face from Riley... he did good today, he was up all day, was in the sun, no nap and I am proud of him for holding it together (most the time)..