Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Lightbulb moments.....

16:32.. 2/27/2008..
I am sitting here at work having a "lightbulb" moment.. The kind of moments Oprah talks about on her show. I began reading the book Losing It, its the Valerie Bertinelli story.. I am only thru the second chapter and see myself in nearly everything in the book so far. As my husband is at home.. Loading our moving truck, packing and cleaning... I came to a realization.. that today.. at 8pm.. it will be the last time I drive home the same way. The last time I was allowed to get my butt out of bed 25 mins before I have to be at work this morning. and the last time I have to hear that Ghetto music, pounding so loud it shakes the windows on our house.. I will have to fight traffic... everyday down Ironwood.. but its worth it! I can't even say its an exciting feeling exactly ... more like.. content.. and calm.. We have worked so hard for so many years.. never taking family vacations, seeing movies or going out to eat.. always using our entire paychecks (except clearance shopping.. hehe.. ) to pay the bills on time, never being late... even when mike was out of work for 3 months! Just to have this moment.. Some place Riley will be able to grow up, & remember all the great timeswe had together. Maybe even bring his future wife and kids home someday. A place I know will always be there (as long as we pay our mortgage..) & gosh dang it!.. I can paint all my walls pink with green poka dots if I want to! :) I love that feeling.. Now.. on to the next set of goals.. My husband says I always have to be working on something, always wanting something else.. But I feel if your not working for something, toward something.. what the heck are you living for... Even if that goal.. is something as simple as.. smiling more everyday :) I think its time to spend a little time on myself.. becoming the person I want to be.. the person I truely am...

6 Comments!! I love Comments!:

Charli said...

Can I say I agree with you 100%!!!
You do deserve this. and yes you do deserve time for you.

Amy said...

I'm very happy for your move!

I do have to say that Mike has a point. It IS important to be working towards something, but it's equally--if not MORE important to be happy with what you have when you have it. That's what "being content" is all about. You don't want to go through life always thinking, "The grass is greener...". You should always be trying to better yourself, but don't discount the things around you that you HAVE worked for.

There are blessings in everything...you just have to realize them.

Amy said...

I want to see pictures when you're moved in!

Heather and Spencer said...

I agree with you, Amy and Mike!! I am so stinkin happy for you to finally have your house!! I promise to have your growth chart done this week!! I sware :)

Casey said...

Amy, I am very very very grateful for everything in my life. I think I didnt explain well enough. What I meant was that Mike's whole goal for the week.. is to watch the nascar race and have milk and poptarts. not that he is content with his life, just that he is to lazt to do anything about it. I was thankful for mobile home in aj. But I am more thankful for our new house! I dont think life is greener on the other side.. I just think I am almost 30 years old! That seems so crazy to me.. and that I have allot to work on..I am not who I want to be yet, or where I want to be in my life. But I am making stides everyday,, (mostly) sometimes everyother day.. to be that person. :) I didnt mean to sound like I wasnt grateful for the amazing gifts I have in my life.

Amy said...

You didn't sound ungrateful...you just sounded longingful...if that's a word.

And yeah...there is definitely more to do and look forward to than Nascar and pop tarts.