I am sitting here at work having a "lightbulb" moment.. The kind of moments Oprah talks about on her show. I began reading the book Losing It, its the Valerie Bertinelli story.. I am only thru the second chapter and see myself in nearly everything in the book so far. As my husband is at home.. Loading our moving truck, packing and cleaning... I came to a realization.. that today.. at 8pm.. it will be the last time I drive home the same way. The last time I was allowed to get my butt out of bed 25 mins before I have to be at work this morning. and the last time I have to hear that Ghetto music, pounding so loud it shakes the windows on our house.. I will have to fight traffic... everyday down Ironwood.. but its worth it! I can't even say its an exciting feeling exactly ... more like.. content.. and calm.. We have worked so hard for so many years.. never taking family vacations, seeing movies or going out to eat.. always using our entire paychecks (except clearance shopping.. hehe.. ) to pay the bills on time, never being late... even when mike was out of work for 3 months! Just to have this moment.. Some place Riley will be able to grow up, & remember all the great timeswe had together. Maybe even bring his future wife and kids home someday. A place I know will always be there (as long as we pay our mortgage..) & gosh dang it!.. I can paint all my walls pink with green poka dots if I want to! :) I love that feeling.. Now.. on to the next set of goals.. My husband says I always have to be working on something, always wanting something else.. But I feel if your not working for something, toward something.. what the heck are you living for... Even if that goal.. is something as simple as.. smiling more everyday :) I think its time to spend a little time on myself.. becoming the person I want to be.. the person I truely am...
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
Adventure, thoughts and Ramblings from Casey at 3:59 PM